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March 3rd, 2006
08:50 am - End transmision
No more livejournal for me ... www.myspace.com/barcode_boy
Current Mood:  blank
Current Music: This is Your Life-The Juliana Theory-Emotion is Dead
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January 31st, 2006
07:23 pm
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: This is Your Life-The Juliana Theory-Emotion is Dead
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January 6th, 2006
06:19 pm - Synopsis
I'm not in the mood to update this so you'll have to wait. OK, i suppose you deserve SOMETHING:
- Work is the same old same old
- Dave is still good
- Money i still shit
- Christmas and New Years was OK
Peace Out
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Honorary Title - Petals
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December 20th, 2005
10:48 am - Surprise visit from Mrs Pammy Claus in her Golden Champagne Sleigh (CRV)
Well things have been really shit moneywise due in most part to my nine or ten weeks off work. I feel really bad for not having bought Dave a birthday present for his birthday which was a month ago. Mother turned up unexpected on Sunday evening in her new car because she was here to pick up my half brother and sister in law from the airport ready for xmas. This wasn't really a big deal but then on Monday i had to go with her to the airport and things which meant i didn't get to spend time with Dave. I went to the hospital and got the all clear to use my ankle as normal from now on which i am really happy about. It was really good to see everyone again and it also meant she could get me some nice shampoo and conditioner and other hair things and was going to get me some more underwear but i didnt' see any that i really wannted. Then today when she left she bought me enough groceries for the rest of the time i'll be here until i go on Saturday afternoon. She also gave me $300 to buy people presents which was really nice of her and much needed. I feel so stingey (sp?) =S I can't wait to get away for christmas though and then to get back to work full time when i return. Still have no idea what i'm going to do career wise...
Current Mood:  happy
Current Music: none
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December 12th, 2005
10:12 pm
| Your 2005 Song Is | 
Beverly Hills by Weezer
"My automobile is a piece of crap
My fashion sense is a little whack
And my friends are just as screwy as me"
You breezed through 2005 in your own funky style! |
| How You Life Your Life | 
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations.
Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot!
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down. |
| Your Brain's Pattern | 
You're a simple thinker, and this is actually a very good thing.
You don't complicate matters when you don't have to.
You look for the simplest explanation or solution, and you go with that.
As a result, your mind is uncluttered and free of stress. |
| Your Hair Should Be Purple | 
Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional.
You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights. |
| How You Are In Love | 
You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
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November 29th, 2005
07:16 pm - Things
Mother visits. Dinner with Jillian. Naturopath. Much herbs and drinks and things to take and do. Night out in Gayndah - not much drinking. Laura's dance concert including a power outage. Lack of sleep. Long trip back to brisbane. Acupuncture and massage (well worth it). A few days with Dave =D
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Panic at the Disco - Intermission
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November 22nd, 2005
10:07 am - OK...No Surprises Here...
Emo Kid.
Which Subculture Are You?
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Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Phantomlimb - Cheap Thrills (YEAH!)
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November 19th, 2005
08:59 pm - Pointy teeth and lack of pigment
Well last night definitely had its moments. Both Dave and I (probably more so Dave to be honest) had become quite frantic at the disgraceful thought of me turning up to his party not in costume. There was but a few hours until i had to get on the bus and i couldn't come up with anything due to the cognitive drought i have been through as of late. In the end Dave said i was going as a cat and that was that. So i threw together something at the last minute which has always been my forte. Upon arrival i came to the realisation that i had to pretend that i had never been to his house before because his parents are not completely aware of the whole me and him thing. For a short while it was quite intimate but soon enough the guests starting rolling in. There was Dorothy and Toto, a Dominatrix, A cow boy and cow girl, a cave woman, a policeman complete with leather pants and, my personal favourite, a daisy - Kudos to Dinky. The birthday boy looked quite stunning himself in his crocodile hunting attire.
After some drinks and some eats, everyone was heading to the Valley and somewhere along the line i got convinced to join the rest of the gang even though i am still somewhate crippled. All was going well at the little place i had claimed by the bar when somethign happened that i still can't explain. I didn't feel drunk at all really and then all of a sudden i started sweating profusely and generally felt quite unwell. I don't remember much exactly but i got sent home somehow and everything ended up OK. After i woke up, i couldn't help but laugh; could anythign else SERIOUSLY go wrong with me right now?!?!
Some other points to consider:
* I've missed the date for re-enrolment at uni
* It's Dave's real birthday tomorrow
* I get my cast off tomorrow
* I've had over seven weeks off work now and i dont' want to go back. I want a better job
* SO not looking forward to 'one of the hottest summers in history' as they are claiming it to be
* I'm not really looking forward to Christmas
* However it will be good to see my brother again because its been like five or six years or something
* Chase is on schoolies and i shall visit him some time if at all possible
* Haven't really seen any of my friends in a while, for various reasons
* Why can't i be a vampire
Current Mood: you decide
Current Music: The Honorary Title - Petals
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November 17th, 2005
12:00 pm - Northstar - Two Zero Two
Oh my...I haven't had an emo breakdown like this in a long time. When i say emo breakdown, i mean in a good way i suppose. So you get the full picture i should start from the start. When i was living in brighton i went to a Modest Mouse concert with my good friend Mel and the support band was called Northstar and we didn't know who they were but we really loved them and Mel bought the CD and they got us into the VIP section at their gig in London with Taking Back Sunday and Alexisonfire. Upon returning to australia i tried to find some of their songs to download but couldn't find them anywhere and then today i randomly remembered them and found all of their songs on limewire and then the first song i happened to play was one of my favourites - two zero two. And after about five seconds i just burst into tears thinking about Brighton and Mel and the concert and everything. They were happy tears though i guess. It wasn't a bad thing at all, it's just somethign that hasn't happened in a while.
I think mother may be worried about me because she keeps inviting me to go back home for a while. Probably because she realises that i haven't been the healthiest boy lately and wants to make sure i'm doing ok, but i dont' really want to go home. I mean, i'm going to see them at xmas time anyway so i'm going to try and get out of it. She also keeps incisting that i go see a naturopath, but only once i'm certain they are a good one and aparently she doesn't trust me because she wants to come down here and take me to one herself *rolls eyes*.
i don't have a costume for Dave's party yet. I'm leaving it very late. The party is tomorrow. I have no money so i'm going to have to get creative with what i have. Wish me luck.
Current Mood: So emo right now
Current Music: Northstar - Two Zero Two
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November 15th, 2005
04:02 pm - cK ONE
To be quite honest with you, the past few weeks, or i could even be willing to say month, have been totally and entirely fucked up. If it isn't one thing, its something else. With most elation i am pleased to announce that i believe all, or at least most, of this will sort itself out in the very near future.
I guess it all really started when i broke my ankle. Already having a tendancy to become depressed, the last thing i needed was another excuse to stay at home in bed. But it wasn't really that i was actually depressed; it was more that i was just so unmotivated and fatigued. I hate fatigue. Work was getting shitty with me, Dave was getting shitty with me and well, I was getting shitty with me. Things just HAD to keep getting worse didnt' they.
After two bouts of conjunctivitis, an ear infection, four more weeks of ongoing fatigue, heat intolerance and other unexplained symptoms i was started to get pretty pissed off at the world. That made a total of five weeks off home almost completely unable to leave the house unassisted as i was not capable of walking myself up to the end of the street to catch a bus. I'm not sure if anyone else out there has been that unwell or felt that helpless and reliant on others, but i can tell you it was doing crazy things to my head.
There's more though.....TONSILLITIS!!! That's right. Aparently i deserved a little more of a battering from the creator/destiny/fate/whatever you may or may not believe in. Wasn't too bad at first on Thursday but progressively got worse until i couldn't take it anymore of Monday becuase i could no longer eat or drink or even swallow my own saliva (needless to say there were some pretty gross little bottles around my house) and i also had the most severe ear pain i have ever felt in my life. Actually, i would even say it hurt many times worse than my broken ankle ever has. Went to the hospital for the second time that day at 9pm and when i finally got in, i was prodded and probed and had various liquids pumped into me including, general fluids, anti-biotics, steroids and pain killers. Tuesday morning comes around and i don't feel much better but have been moved to a different ward. More drips, a few naps and things and a visit from Dave which was most appreciated and before i knew it, it was already dinner time and they informed me i had to stay another night. I got moved to a different ward once again and i was feeling a little better, mostly because of the anti-biotics and pain killers. At around 11pm on Tuesday night when they woke me to do my obs, the nurse informed me that i would be going into theatre at around 6am. I was too out of it even ask what i was being operated on. Got woken up at 5.30 and had a shower and stuff and then went to theatre and found out they were just doing a small biopsy on my tonsil or whatever it is when they take a small sample of something. So they did that, waited for me to recover and then kicked me out.
I'm feeling much much much better now, probably because i can eat again, and also being able to swallow your saliva is a good feeling. I just wish they knew what was going on with me in the first place because they keep telling me how strange it is that i have been unwell for so long with so many different symptoms but they can't find any link other than 'perhaps its just a virus'. I had three separate doctors tell me that 'its just a virus and nothing can help it. just let it run its course' only to be improved 200% by two days of anti-biotics. What the fuck is wrong with the doctors here. If i didn't have to wait so long most of the time, i would just go to the emergency ward of the hospital every time i was sick because they're the only ones who seem to know anything/care.
OK, well I realise that most of this rant has been about me being sick, but its hard to write about anythign else when your life has been consumed by ill-health for such a long time (be that mental, physical or emotional). I don't really want any sympathy from anyone, i'm long over that. All i really want, is relative health. See, if it was JUST a broken ankle, I could live with it. Or if it was JUST tonsillitis. But one thing just isn't enough for me is it. Hopefully i can get rid of this, whatever it is, very soon and GET ON WITH MY LIFE! I'm just so sick of it all; i really am.
On a happier note, I am most delighted by the fact that there is only a couple of days until Dave's party which happens to be a costume party, but i have no idea what i'm going to go as....so i'll need to do some serious thinking if i want to be let in. I am however, disappointed that i dont' get my cast off until three days AFTER the party. What a bummer. I know that i'll have a great time anyway, but i don't think i'll be able to go out with everyone to the valley afterwards which is a real shame. It's also just good knowing that this is the longest relationship i've been in and i'm sure its going to last much longer. He's been so good to me when i know that i've been a real cunt at times (although i've never MEANT to be one). He might not like my music or some of my friends and we might not always agree on everything, but he's as good as anything i could wish for at the moment - and mother seems to approve - so it looks like he can stay for a bit longer :P
It is also very fantastic to have THE Jill back in the country. Back in Brisbane to be more precise. It is so exciting just that there is the posibility of her popping around for a quick visit uninvited every now and then. I'll have to go visit her once i get my cast off and then we can go out becuase she hasn't really been out clubbing in Australia yet.
Wow, this is turning into a really long post by my standards. Perhaps i should write in it a little more often and this wouldn't happen. Oh well. Peace Out.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: The Gathering - Shrink
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